Monday, May 6th 2024

It's been around 5 years since i posted last time. Today's my birthday. I feel quite joyful due to the cheerfulness of my coworkers. My relationship is okay too. I can tell people that i have all i need. My careeer also develop toward positive direction. Currently i feel in love with playing guitar and doing music again. After all this time. I thought i lost my muse because it's long gone. I try the dangerous method. To open the pandora, which still locked deep down in my inner subconcious. I did terrible thing trying to prying into bygone days as it filled with joy, hopes and hollow dreams. After a short escape i finally able to get hold of mearyself and stop going further. I know it's all in the abyss, and neither is relevant. What matter is the present. And the future. Maybe it's time to let go of my dream of being a tree, or guardian angel. Maybe it's time to be more common. Like human suppose to. I try to walk forward. An old tune caught my attention, drifting me back to those night of endless hopes and dreams. I want to savor it more, still trying to get those muse back. I learnt that money is irrelevant. This is beyond. Beyond this life, this timeframe, this universe. I don't know how far myself go in a different timeline. Sometimes i wish i wake up in different reality, still me but different timeline. The what ifs are endless. I know i'll regret writing this later. But i can't deny the essence of longing. In the end, we're just a flick in this universe. I've been given my time, i know that i'm content. This gift is more than i bargain for. I've been given new hope too. I'm thankful. This is 34. This will be my mark. I'll make something of this life that been given to me that's my hope. We're in good terms. The only shadow that's been haunting me is just myself, beyond that is limitless possibility and opportunity. I'll try to enjoy more of this life. Cheers, dear me. To hopes and dreams. Let's inspire!